For the past few days I have not been feeling okay but thankfully, husband and I survived!
For the life of me, I could not understand why I was feeling so … strange. A lot different from my usual dose of PMS. My period is several days delayed (again!) already… earlier this week I experienced abdominal cramps, body aches, sore body parts, and majorly moody and aggressive. I was also sweating profusely. I felt dizzy and nauseous. My husband added I was overly emotional, and he was right. I feel like there’s a tsunami of emotion inside of me, slowly surging. Several times, I broke out crying over a commercial or a movie (Mandy Moore’s A Walk to Remember), and snapped at my husband, nitpicked, and flamed him. Gah. Even the dogs knew something was not right and they retreated to their own little private space under the stairs.
I wanted to dismiss all of these as PMSing but, on second thought, I wondered if these signs are actually preludes to pregnancy? Oh, my friends know how badly I want to get pregnant already, but all previous preludes were false alarms. Could I be pregnant this time?
I had to set aside browsing through cell phone reviews for the meantime to ask a midwife/friend about these symptoms. She advised me to get a pregnancy test. I know I have always been unlucky with pregnancy test kits so I am not really keen on doing that just yet. I try to keep myself from getting ahead and excited. I’ve had several incidents like this and ended up disappointed and heartbroken. For all I know, tomorrow I’ll have my period. I’ve had several incidents like this in the past and have ended up disappointed.So, yeah, whatever will be, will be. I’m so glad that amidst all these rollercoaster of emotions, my husband is so patient with me, distancing himself, allowing me to have my space and deal with these on my own.